Been slacking......

Gosh~~ i just work up from an afternoon nap.... been slacking from my aikido training and meditation... feel tired easily lately... must be lack of Ki flow..... hmmm need to get back to training... miss it a lot ...

feels like i'm losing someone... though its for a short period but i can't help but feeling despair and loneliness when not able to interact with her... i wonder why am i giving myself such a thoughts .... its one sided after all... guess i never learn... hahaa... confidence is nothing but delusion some say... yet i keep hoping... persistent sometimes does has it rewards... sometimes...... sometimes.....

i hope....